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I’m overdosing on empathy. I don’t mean this to trumpet my own horn as some kind of Saint. What is my greatest weakness? I care too much.

No, I’m using empathy in a purely technical term without any moral connotations. Harkening back to the original German etymology of empathy from Einfühlung (“feeling into”). I think that is the problem I’m feeling into too much. Putting myself in hypothetical shoes. And extremely tight painful shoes at that. The empathy I feel is towards the children of Bad WMAF. The classic white nazi anti-feminist dad and self-hating castrating Tiger Mom. For the most part I don’t feel my parents fall into this in anyway. They aren’t perfect, they have WMAF privilege, and I have not been shy about calling them out viciously whenever they the least bit exploit these privileges. But they are not the classic WMAF stereotype of the media, Hollywood, history, statistics, anecdotes, novels, celebrities, history, the internet etc. But in my overdose of empathy, all I can do is see myself as the Eurasian son of all those nasty couples. What it must feel like to have parents like that. And thats why I get so enraged over it. How dare you talk like that about Asian men, when your own Half-Asian son, will have to endure that life. It is though I became the son of every single WMAF couples in the world. Every single discussion about WMAF or Hapas became about me personally. It was as though I were the incarnation of every single Hapa in the world.

I started blogging again around Thanksgiving. And despite playing devil’s advocate about the pros of my situation. I couldn’t think of anything to be thankful for. I acknowledged yes, there are plenty of times and places which were worse than my own. But living in the 1st world, there was no race worse to be than a WMAF son. And no sophisms could change that. That was my frame of reference comparing Eurasians to all other races. Well, here is another frame of reference. Comparing me as an individual to all other Eurasians. In this r/Hapas has cheered me up. Misery loves company. I don’t want to say that I feel superior in anyway to the Hapas who suffer there. But I acknowledge that I have not experienced the same degree of racism from either my parents, peers, or society in general as expressed there. They really make it sound like being Eurasian in America today is like being a Black in 1920s Alabama. They are constantly taunted and even physically assaulted. What got me, is that these comments were not even coming from one of the “Woe is me” bitter Hapas. No, these were the positive, chin up, Hapas. The ones saying cheer up, its not that bad. Oh sure, I got called Chink and Gook all the time, rejected by girls who openly hated Asians, and jumped by racist classmates. But really guys being Hapa isn’t that bad. Sure my parents, were the classic WMAF couple who hated Asian men. But we don’t need to be dwelling on our misery.

Now I don’t agree with that level of turn the other cheek positivity. But it does put my own pain in perspective. Many Eurasians have had it much worse than me. The very fact, that what I say about Eurasians as a race is true, actually makes my own personal situation look better in perspective. I’v very thin-skinned about racism and not one to laugh off a joke. And yet, even I must admit that the racism I experienced has been relatively mild compared to these other Hapas. I’ve never been called a racial slur in my entire life, which seems to be a daily experience for these Hapas. I’ve never had any racist experiences with Asian women. I’ve never had a white girl reject me openly based on race. With each individual rejection, I felt I was being rejected respectfully as an individual person. I didn’t feel at the time that race played any role. It is only mulling over statistics in aggregate, that I begin to feel that subconscious hatred of Hapas, must have been driving rejection behind the scenes. Its weird that me with my negative attitude has had much less negative experiences than the Hapas trying to have a positive attitude. The Hapas saying “its not that bad” have had worse racism than me.

The other thing that got to me, is that some of these Hapas might belong to supposedly “privileged” categories. For example even the self-described white-looking Eurasians, have experienced much more direct open racism for their Asian features than I an Asian-looking Hapa has. I have never pretended that Hapa girls have it easy, like the “Abort your sons and its all good” crowd. But I have kind of felt that Hapa guys get more hate, the same way Asian guys get more hate. And anti-Hapa girl racism, is more the sexual fetishization variety of racism reserved for females. But no, the Eurasian girls described openly hostile aggressive racist bullying, that we might associated with boys. People just yelling out racial slurs at them on the playground. There is nothing fetishizing about that. Its just violent racial bullying like Hapa boys get.

I’m not saying the situation is good for Hapas, in fact I’m saying its terrible. But in a way that does put my own situation in perspective. So much of my fear of racism, is almost like preemptive reaction. I know racism is coming and so I’m fighting back before it even happens. But for so many of these Hapas its not a future contingent possibility or a hypothetical or sociological data, it theirs personal experiences and childhood memories. And the few racist incidents I endure seem relatively mild, compared to the bombardment they suffer under. I got a reputation as one of the most bitter Eurasian blogger, at least until some friendly competition has been emerging over the last year. But it seems like I have endured some of the least racism of any Hapa, at least compared to the Hapas who post at r/Hapas. Even the white-looking Hapas all talk about how girls openly tell them, they don’t like Asians. And I’ve been rejected plenty of times, any I’ve never felt in person that I was not being respected as a human being. Its only looking at sociology, that I feel that subconsciously it must have been statistical racism. Nothing is settled here, but I do appreciate having lived one of the least racist Eurasian lives possible. I’m not saying “its not that bad”. All my complaints about my own life still stand, their lives are just worse. They are the ones with the horror stories.

I don’t want to make it into “Eurasian World Problems”, oh those Hapas have it much worse than me, therefore I should be grateful for what I have and shut up. But yeah, even the white-looking Hapas, that I’m kind of jealous of, describe getting more hate for their Asianess than even I get.

I do feel empathy for the Hapas born out of the classically racist WMAF, even if they are not me. But ultimately that is going to be their own personal battle. I think it is reprehensible for parents to do that to their child, but thats going to be their battle. Just by having this blog, bringing up Eurasian issues, I’ve done all I can for them. The Eurasian genie is out of the bottle and these currents are very much in the air now. They are the ones who are going to suffer the most, not me. And I wish them the best, but I can’t and wont live their lives for them, and theres no point mentally torturing myself as though I’m.

In the same day I can go whiplashing between 2 opposite extremes on the Eurasian issue. I can feel myself calming down, and feeling maybe I’m a little too harsh on my parents, just because they belong to a category with a lot of bad apples. But then on some random corner of the internet or media, where I thought I was safe, I will have the ugliest aspects of WMAF shoved in my face, and I will rage. How do I balance my desire to separate myself from the whole world of WMAF, with the extreme viciousness displayed by them?

One of the points I’m repeatedly emphasized is that old habits of White-Black binary oppositions don’t work for White-Asian issues. Its much more complex and multivaried. Hence, I’m often attacked for racism, by those seeing race in those traditional terms, as I try to untangle the web. So lets stop looking at WMAF as a binary opposition between evil WMAFs and good-leaning WMAFs. I consider my own parents to be among good-leaning WMAFs, but its hard for me to admit that there are any good WMAFs, when the structural racism of the bad ones corrupts them all. Why are there so many more “good” WMAFs than good AMWFs? These couplings don’t happen in one direction by accident. And so even if not subjectively malicious, there is definitely objective WMAF privilege in even the best of them.

Instead of Good WMAF vs Bad WMAF, lets look at it as a continuum. On one extreme lets hold the openly evil, racist, sexist, satanic WMAF. These couples actually do exist, and in rather large numbers. On the other hand are good-leaning WMAFs. Basically decent people, not perfect. Perhaps actively anti-racist to varying degrees. But still ultimately profiting from WMAF privilege. But its not either/or. The vast majority of WMAF is in the middle somewhere inbetween. Its my perception that the WMAF center leans much more towards the evil than good-leaning side. But they might not have the pure sadistic satanism as displayed by some WMAFs in my comments sections. Most WMAF couples lean towards, racism and sexism, but not with the fiery honesty of the most vicious of them. If the WMAF numbers lean overwhelming towards the bad side, what impact does this have on the good-leaning ones? Should what extent should they be judged for the crimes of their category? These are difficult issues, and deeply personal to me, as they directly impact how I treat my own family.

Why am I so bothered by evil WMAFs, how does it affect me? Suppose hypothetically all Black women hated Asian men. If Black women were known to especially despise Asians, and had a bunch of blogs about how disgusting Asian men were. Its never good to be attacked, but it wouldn’t cut so deep as WMAF attacks do. I don’t have any interest in Asian women, so why do their attacks mean so much? Well, part of the reason is races are just naturally paired together. This is
caricatured as patriarchal Asian men “owning” their women. But the truth is the opposite, de facto every other race of men “owns” their women accept Asians. Even WMAFs will rely on the trope that Asian men and women were “made for each other”, and thats why both have the smallest parts. In that sense Asian women hating Asian men, is a much more powerful message to the world than Black women would be. Now I wish the genders of a race were not associated with each other. If as a Eurasian male, I had nothing to do with Asian women, that would be wonderful. But thats not the case. For better or for worse the 2 sexes of each race are paired together. And since Asian women are the only women at the dance complaining about their partner, it sends a loud message to all men and women, that Asian men are the worse. And of course evil WMAFs are quite open in explicitly and loudly stating this implicit message.

And then these same WMAF couples go onto have kids, and WMAF issues become Hapa issues. Its a pretty ugly situation all around. And I wish more neutral, objective observers would take a good hard look at the issues I’m gesturing at, instead of just demonizing me as racist and insane. Look I’d love to see races break down, and us to become a big rainbow race. I once bought the lie that race-mixing helped undermine racism. But these just aren’t the facts on the ground. WMAF is quite clearly a power relationship based on domination. And no one suffers from it more than the Eurasian children. In an ideal world, races wouldn’t mean anything and there be tons of WMAF and AMWF. And not just White-Asians mixing as the “2 best races”, but all kinds of mixes with the rainbow. And while there wouldn’t be any strict 1:1 quota in mixings, the digressions would be based on random drift, and not structural power relations. As WMAF to AMWF is happening now, with an observed 100:1 ratio, it very much is about power, sexism, racism, and not rainbow love. I hope my readers can look into these specific issues, and not just write me off as a hater against mixing.

Lets wrestle with these Eurasian issues. On the one hand I would like to put them behind me and forget about it. But there is no in front of me anymore. I see no hope in my life, and Hapa issues are the elephant in the room. Yes, Hapa issues depress me and get me down. But my whole life is down. We can say that Hapa issues are not a distraction from my other pursuits, but that all other pursuits are a distraction from Hapa issues. It is hopeless trying to self-censor myself and not come back to this blog. And theres no point in making it a battle of wills, since my self-discipline is utterly broken, now that I have nothing to hope for in this horrid world.

Is being Eurasian the be all end all? My personal flaws and the flaws of the race are not mutually incompatible. As I said last post, if we made a Venn diagram of stereotypically Asian traits and loser traits, there would be a perfect overlap. So lets say that being Half-Asian imposes a strict bamboo ceiling on my best possible life. Now I’m on the floor, in the basement. At the absolute bottom of human well-being and flourishing. Life has become hateful to me. Given the garbage cards I was dealt in life, could I have played them better? I will concede that its possible my life could have been marginally better. But I could also have made worse choices and made my life worse. I think the bamboo ceiling is pretty low. Back in 2009 I used to debate with myself whether life in 2009 was worth living. And my devil’s advocate could definitely score a few debating points over myself. If you can accept the culture and system, there is a lot to enjoy as an average or even below average American man in the 21st century. And it was these debates with myself that convinced me to give life another chance, when I was on the brink of suicide. But I was a victim of my own success. By entirely swallowing and absorbing the values of American culture, it was impossible to ignore the racial aspect. And so I wrote this blog in 2011, just as I was making my best effort to integrate into the mainstream.

If the best argument of 2010 was “life as an average American male isn’t that bad” the argument of 2015 is “life as an average
Asian/Eurasian male is TERRIBLE”. When I look at the life of the average Asian-American male, even if he has achieved middle class status, economically, I see nothing to envy. I don’t want to live that life. And this is where WMAF comes in. As I see WMAF couples as both instigators of and profiters from Asian male emasculation. And then they create Half-Asian sons who have to live in this world. Well thats the Hapa Paradox that is at the heart of this blog. I think a large amount of WMAF couples are loudly and proudly based on open racism against Asian males and sexism against Asian females. And you can google these creeps up yourself, if you want to see the background to Hapa males. Now maybe they are just a loud, militant minority. But their hateful words ring true to me, since its perfectly in line with the trends and actions of “mainstream” WMAF couples. There is a big crisis in our hands. And whats the best case scenario for a WMAF couple? At best they are not openly racist, but still ignore the problems their Half-Asian sons might suffer. It might not even be intentionally malicious. Anti-Asian racism isn’t de jure to the same extent anti-Black racism was in the 1950s. So to someone who is not a Half-Asian son, it might seem like he is just thin skinned and hypersensitive. Since these are largely cultural issues. Why complain about the lack of Asian rappers and basketball players when Asians are the highest income group? My white dad asked me.

For my white dad, it seems silly for me to be angsting out over lack of Asian male movie stars. But it does matter. Look at the gay rights movement “It Gets Better”. It has gotten better for gays, in my lifetime I’ve seen a revolution in gay rights. What was the cause? “Liberal Hollywood brainwashing” normalizing the behavior. To an extent that is true, but not as sinister as conservatives would make it out to be. The media over the last few decades has done a lot to show gays as just regular human beings. To humanize them. Once gays are just regular people, its hard to hate them. Compare and contrast that with the progress Asian men have made in the media over the last decade. It is hard to name a single character who was a fully developed human being. And I do think it makes a big difference. If having prominent sympathetic characters and celebrities builds empathy, I think decades of bombardment of asexual, nerdy, Asian enemy clowns has accomplished the opposite. Asian men are more than ever mere insects or robots. Completely subhuman. And this has eradicated my psyche. It is hard for me to even think of myself as human anymore, and I eschew all human contact. This Hermit Kingdom isolation has backfired, in that rather than freeing me from mental pollution, I obsess more than ever over being Hapa. And the internet is even nastier than the people I knew in real life.

Being half-Asian makes me feel less than human. I feel that US society sees me as less than human. When people are shocked by how wide the AMWF to WMAF gap, for me the real miracle is that AMWF even happens at all, when Asian men are not even human in US society. To be an AMWF is to revolt against a whole cultural apparatus. This is why it is to the infinite eternal shame of WMAF that they have to baby-snatch successful Eurasian celebrities from the sons of full white mothers. No Asian mother will ever raise a successful Eurasian celebrity.

How do I deal with this issues? I have no incentive to try, since the life of the average Asian man, hold zero appeal to me. I have no reason to strive for it. And I’m under no illusions that I will be some above average Super Eurasian that breaks down barriers.

I feel that being part Asian makes me less than human in American culture. And I resent my own parents for being a WMAF couple, which I see as both symptom and cause of Asian dehumanization. My parents created me to be a human being, and took away my humanity in a single act. They might not have maliciously intended any harm, but the bad apples have spoiled the bunch. And there are tons of WMAF bad apples, which lead me to see them as a truly vile coupling. It is just impossible to have the level of empathy for another race of males, that is necessary to be a parent to a Eurasian son. Can my parents, even with the best intentions, ever feel what I feel? No, they can’t. And if they want to pretend that being Asian male is identical to being white male in USA, then all communication between us must necessarily break down.

But what can even the best of WMAF do? Suppose a WMAF couple read my blog and were totally convinced by my arguments and genuinely wanted to do their best to advance the interests of their Eurasian son. Some WMAF bloggers do pretend to speak like that. Maybe a Chang Johnson leads some Asian-American civil rights organization. I read a piece by a WMAF Asian mom trying to convince white women to give Asian men a chance. But as many comments told her, it was impossible to take her seriously, when her own actions spoke so much louder than her words. What could a genuinely progressive anti-racist WMAF couple do to help their half-asian son? Even, with the best of intentions- nothing.

Its a sad world Hapa men live in. And we are too isolated to even find each other and build communities. We are all on our own. To even find this blog, a Eurasian man would have to already be half-way to my conclusions, if he was already defining himself by his mixed status and seeking out resources. Most Eurasian men probably just take the stance advocated by my commentators. “I’m a personal failure and loser, it has nothing to do with my race”. Unless they are searching, they wont find out, that there are so many WMAF sons out there exactly like them. Its not a coincidence that so many Hapa guys end up in the same place.

What is one good thing about being Eurasian? The answer I most frequently get are variations on “at least you are not a disgusting full Asian, they are the lowest of the low”. But because of the 1-drop rule, I’m treated by White Society as a disgusting full Asian, I’m the lowest of the low. And so your negative compliment is just a straight insult. The one good thing about being Eurasian, is that you are the worst race of males. I did an entry on the “Uncanny Valley” on why being “better” than the worst race of males, wasn’t any advantage. There was also a blog entry by Bitter Halfie Man, who explained that he had no advantage in getting Asian or Hapa girls over full Asian men. He said it was a purely theoretical advantage, since any Asian girl who admired his white traits, could easily get a full white guy. The same logic of course applies to girls of any race.

Its not just about girls, sex, relationships. Even just walking down the street, I always see social groups congregating together based on race, culture, ethnicity. Humans are a naturally tribal species. They form in and out groups. And every time I see friends of all the same race hanging out together in even the most diverse areas. Its a punch in the stomach. A reminder that Hapas have no tribe, and will always be the permanent outgroup for this most tribal species of ape.

There has been a lot of heated controversy at
http://www.reddit.com/r/hapas/ over some comments TCOMD made there. My blog has been dragged into this, as many people often casually confuse us and TCOMD has requested that I weigh in and differentiate us. My blog has generally been self-contained in its own little solipsistic world, and I generally haven’t directly acknowledged trends outside my blog. While I regarded the emergence of new eurasian blogs as a step forward, I haven’t commented on them myself. But since the confusion is now causing difficulties, I think it is necessary that I directly confront our differences.

Me and TCOMD are very different people, and while we have superficial similarities in both being Eurasian men angry at our parents, we have lived entirely different lives. To call us the same, is just another variant on all Asians look alike, in this case all Eurasian write alike. If anything you could say that we started on opposite extremes of the spectrum, and have now met in a Eurasian middle. Now it is true that we have both carefully read each other’s blogs, so there has been some influence in both directions. TCOMD says that he was initially influenced by the paleoconservative views of his white dad, and initially identified with the cause of the white man. My blog influenced him in seeing his issues as specifically Eurasian issues, tied into the circumstances of his birth. I had essentially left my blog behind in 2011 as a completed project. Contrary to the impression that SEML was written during depression, it was actually written during the happiest most social period of my life. I closed the book on SEML in 2011 and tried to move on with my life. These projects had totally petered out by 2013. But rather than coming back to SEML in my new despair, I still left it alone as a closed book. There were a number of factors that influenced me coming out of retirement in 2014. But among them was definitely the emergence of TCOMD and other Eurasian blogs. TCOMD stands for The Circumstances of my Death. And the name of his blog is Longing for death. subtitled the diary of the suicidal son of a white father and asian mother. It gives some indication of where TCOMD was coming from. And so as the owner of this blog, I wanted to talk to him about his Eurasian despair, which I have felt all to keenly myself.

I don’t necessarily approve of everything TCOMD has to say, nor does he unconditionally agree with me on everything. In some comments he has accused me of going “soft”. I never thought that I’d live to see the day in which I became the “moderates” of the Eurasian Revolution. Suddenly I’m the Girondin or Mensheviks. People have caricatured me as an extremist radical from day one, and now their bogey man has actually taken shape. As for myself, I regard myself as having always been reasonable and moderate on these issues. Back in 2011, I said clearly that I didn’t think my parents were bad people as individuals and that I had nothing against race-mixing in principle. I merely pointed out that there was a lot of ugliness behind many, many WMAF relationships and that this was extremely detrimental to the sense of self-worth in any half Asian son.

If the accusation made against TCOMD is that he too much generalizes from his uniquely bad WMAF parents to the general WMAF population, tainting those poor innocent couples, for me it is the opposite. It is my innocent parents who are being tainted by your horrid WMAF couples. I don’t believe my parents are especially bad people or stereotypical WMAFs. But I have become so disgusted at the vile ugliness of WMAF couples, that I can’t help but rage at my parents for belonging to a category I hate so much. It is in a sense unfair that my parents, have probably taken more crap about being WMAF from their own son, than any of those stereotypical WMAF couples out there, who deserve it from their sons much more.

From my reading of TCOMD his parents were the classic WMAF caricature. His Asian mom openly hated Asian men. His white dad was a
paleoconservative, hated American women was looking to Asian women to fulfill his traditional values, while being a borderline White Nationalist. His mother died due to longterm complications from a bad blood transfusion due to having to give birth to TCOMD in a c-section. The c-section was itself a WMAF issue, as WMAFs have by far the largest number of c-secs of any mixing due to incompatibility.

One of the most galling confusions between me and TCOMD, was when a European women commented saying that these were uniquely American issues, and that she would recommend that I come to Europe to meet a white girl, but obviously she doesn’t since I’m married to my Chinese wife. This was of course very outrageous to me, as I’ve never had a girlfriend, much less a wife. And I have made my views about forming my own WMAF very clear. As a Eurasian caught in the middle, I regard any relations with Asians as a WMAF on my part, and with white girls an AMWF. She told me I shouldn’t be suicidal as some Eurasian guys have never even gotten a smile from a girl, while I was married. I asked her, that now that the confusion was cleared up, whether she did advocate suicide for me, since I had never gotten so much as a smile?

r/Hapas has largely functioned as a newsfeed more than anything else. And I myself have referenced some of the articles posted there. While me and TCOMD have exhibited hot emotional intensity on our blogs, r/Hapas has methodically and dispassionately accumulated empirical evidence for Hapa misery. With the recent controversy, things have heated up at r/Hapas too. And Eurasian men for the 1st time, are speaking up and saying they “completely identify” with the views expressed at r/Hapas and TCOMD. This is a powerful message to all Eurasians out there, that you are not alone. Your thoughts are not alone. There are thousands of other Eurasian men who think exactly like you, you just haven’t found them yet.

There is a Eurasian awakening taken place. I have been meaning to do an article about one of the posts on r/Hapas, which is the 1st mainstream national newspaper to interview a Eurasian man about the type of issues discussed here. The Eurasian voice is finally being heard at least in some quarters. The largescale mass creation of Eurasian sons is at last having its necessary consequences.

I’m not TCOMD, while we have evolved towards some similar positions on specific Eurasian issues, this is a convergence of 2 opposite extremes, and we have lived very different life experiences. Nothing either of us post should be assumed to be mutually endorsed. I appreciate the work TCOMD has done in showing me and other Eurasians that we are not alone in the wilderness, and that in fact something like a Eurasian movement is slowly coalescing.

I’m driving myself insane dwelling on these Eurasian issues. Its not mentally healthy, and maybe I would be better off if I could just move on and forget who I am. Lets just accept simple facts. Eurasian men are the trash of the worst relationship. Eurasian men are garbage in human society. WMAF is standing on the neck of the Eurasian son. It is terrible to be Eurasian, and more and more Hapas are waking up to this fact. Its getting kind of repetitive since there really isn’t much more that can be said on this topic. It sucks to be Hapa male. Thats all there is to it.

So what now? It shouldn’t matter. I’ve said what had to be said about being Hapa.

Why does racism bother me so much?

I can’t believe in 2015, I still have to reinvent the wheel in answering “why is racism bad?” But in some sense we can say that race relations between whites and Asians on large numbers are only now beginning. Its a new type of racism very different from the
traditional white-black binary, large scale race-mixing does not represent the breaking down of racial barriers. Rather the creation of Eurasian children on a massive scale is the apotheosis of this unique brand of anti-Asian racism. In some ways more primal and archaic and less ideologically sophisticated than anti-Black racism. Castrate enemy men and take his women. The white man thinks he is creating an ally in his Eurasian son, since he will have more white blood and be bleached. But in my experience it has been the opposite result. Eurasian men are much more militant and enraged at white society compared to full-asian men. The Eurasian son is not a friend to his white father. Eurasians are the focal point of sexual globalization. The nexus of the ancient civilizations of East and West. We are the Bridge, but not at all in the manner our parents expected nor wanted.

Why is it that I’m ok with personal failure but not racial
stereotypes? You can’t really separate being a personal loser from being an Asian man, since there is a 100% perfect overlap between the Venn Diagram of loser traits and Asian male stereotypes. The ideal Asian male caricature is the definition of being a failure in western society. The Asian man is everything a man shouldn’t be. Even supposed positive traits like “intelligence” is not a positive in American culture. And to the extent that smarts are celebrated, it is the creative, innovative genius. And this type of intelligence Asian robots are explicitly declared not to have. By white nerds addicted to Anime, no less. Americans are supposed to admire hard work and tenacity. If Asians are naturally stupid, but pull themselves up by their bootstraps by determination, perhaps this could be a positive character trait? But no, it is just robotic grinding, anything Asian is inherently negative by definition. Everything about being Asian is bad. And this whole nexus of ideology is instantly thrown at me full-force, the instant they see my Eurasian face.

What if I was the only Asian or Eurasian man in the world? Then these would all be personal faults, and not be connected to billions of other men. Is it just that I want my failure to be my personal individual creation, my special little snowflake, and not just the statistical fate of me along with a billion other sexless drones?

How do I accept myself as a Eurasian male? My very birth and DNA has become something hateful to me. Its clear no other human beings will ever accept me, so why should I?

Eurasian men will never find their voice. They will die alone, silent, forgotten. It will be like they never existed. They will be washed away by the waves. The Hapa man has no place on this planet. If you are the son of a white dad and asian mom, you will never belong anywhere. You will wander, being hounded in every direction. It doesn’t get better. Abandon all hope. Things will never get better for the Hapa man. Hope is an illusion. You will not be the 1st Eurasian man in the history of the world to succeed. You will be a failure like every other of your kind. Don’t bother to try. You can’t turn back the wheel of history. You are nothing but a mutant abomination. The waste product of an ugly genocide.

Accept yourself for what you are. An Elephant Man. A hideous beast and ogre. A retarded freak. A monstrous mixture. This is all life has to offer the Eurasian race. It is impossible for human beings to feel any other way. If I continue to think about other human beings, these are the only thoughts which shall flood my mind. This is the permanent relationship between Hapas and the human race.

I don’t care what whites and Asians think of me. What do you think fellow Hapa men? Do I speak your truth? Look inside yourself, search your feelings, you know it to be true. All you have is faith and hope, that your future might get better. But the evidence is overwhelmingly against us. All other Eurasians have failed. Are you so delusional to believe that you will be the first of your race, in the history of the world to not fail? This is the life your parents have selfishly flung upon your heads. They do not care one iota for your happiness.

I’m glad I’m a failure. There are enough successes in the world. Why should I do credit to WMAF? Why should I be a real life Keanu Reeves, Brandon Lee, Dean Cain Tanaka, who is actually 1/2 Asian, and does not have a white mom? Keanu Reeves, Brandon Lee, Dean Cain Tanaka have all been exposed as fraudulent Eurasians, since they have full-white European mothers. Their success could only come from the love of a white mother. The Asian mother will never give her half-white son the manhood he needs. Only a Eurasian with a white mother can achieve. This is why the holy trinity of Eurasian men, Keanu, Brandon, Dean has full-white loving moms. I don’t want to be the Eurasian impossibility. The 1st successful WMAF Hapa son in the history of the world. I don’t want my picture plastered all over WMAF propaganda on what their sons can be. I prefer the truth. I prefer to be a failure. And as a failure I can speak out to my fellow Eurasians, for we have all failed in this world together. Speaking my truth, is the best achievement I could have as a Hapa. Hapas have been voiceless mumbling, growling monsters howling in the dark. Now some of those grunts have formed human words. The monster abomination can speak! I have put what it means to be Eurasian in words.

I don’t care about the human world anymore. I’m not a part of it, and never shall be. What now Eurasian man?

One passage that really stuck out for me in Amy Chua’s book, was her digression on yellow fever. She acknowledges there are a lot of skeevy WMAF couples out there, and makes a point to say that her white husband has never dated an Asian woman before. It was revealing for me to see a supposedly academic intellectual professor from Yale, writing like some Asian teen girl blogger. With the old my white guy doesn’t have yellow fever line. WMAF has become self-aware about just how low status their coupling is, and so they often make the point of saying “my asian girl has dated Asian guys before”, “my white guy has dated white girls before”. Asian women don’t want to be part of any white country club that would let Asians in. Just by dating an Asian girl, white guys make themselves less attractive to future Asian girls. Asian girls are social poison.

They recognize that WMAF is overflowing with bad apples. Amy Chua would not have wanted to date a white man who dates Asian women. And yet she still wants to date a white man. To this extent she has “ruined” her future husband for future Amy Chuas. Now he wont be able to say, he has never dated an Asian woman before. WMAF is based on the opposite of the categorical imperative. Every WMAF wants to be the one exception. Yes, all other WMAFs are scum, but our WMAF is barely a WMAF. John Derbyshire is a white nationalist with a Chinese wife. And he says he would hate to live in a multicult society, in which many white men married Asians. But since he is part of a small minority, it is ok for him. WMAF is quite loudly and proudly based on hypocrisy.

Asian women are low status. The same Columbia speed dating study that rated Asian men the least attractive (as expected), also rated Asian women the least attractive by all races of men. What? I thought Asian women were exotic and desirable, how can they also be sexual failures? If you believe EvoPsych, men and women have different sexual goals, and thus different ways to fail. A female sexual failure will not be a virgin, but she will only attract low status males. And Asian women have become legendary as the woman of choice for loser white males. This is the ultimate definition of female sexual failure, becoming the easy partner of choice for the males of lowest value. Scandinavian women are the highest status women in the world, and so they can price themselves high with radical feminism. East Asian women are the lowest status women in the world, and so to market themselves to loser white men, they have to advertise themselves as the least feminist.  Sexual Coolies serving as strikebreakers against White Feminism. By being so openly desperate for the lowest white men, Asian women have destroyed their own bargaining position in the sexual market. It is impossible to drive a hard bargain when you are so obviously desperate for whiteness. Athletes are the Alpha Males of American society. And it is impossible to name a single athlete married to an Asian women. They have become the Geisha goddesses of white male losers.

I just saw a trailer for a new “white loser” movie, and as I predicted he is paired with an Asian FOB. This has become a Hollywood cliche. Hollywood might be shy about exploring the racial-sexual impulses that goes into this sociological arrangement directly, but they are eminently aware of it. It is the “realistic” version of white nerd gets the blonde prom queen. That is too outlandish. White nerd gets the Asian FOB is in the realm of easy possibility. Asian women have won themselves a wonderful reputation as the easy prostitutes of white nerds. This is the lowest status a female can hold.

Let us look at the Eurasian male triangle. He is born to the lowest status race of prostituted women, married to the lowest beta males of the white race. And he is considered by society to be the lowest status males- Asian males. This is the perfect hell for Eurasians.

Let us look at all the gifts the white loser gives his son. The same genes that made the white dad a loser in both looks and behavior are passed onto the Half-Asian son. Then you throw in the nurture of being raised by a loser white dad and an Asian Tiger Mom. Finally you have the widespread social affect of WMAF, which is very clearly a signal that Asian men are the worst males. Also many white nerds are not just socially worst, but also morally worst, and hold extremist racist and sexist views. All this is poison in the development of the Eurasian son.

I was being half facetious when I included Kurds and Arabs along with Uzbeks, Kazakhs, Turks, Eskimos, Slavs, Finns, Peruvians as list of races that WMAF Eurasian sons have been erroneously compared or conflated with. But now I have actual comments telling me that Eurasian men should be equivalent to Arab men in attractiveness to white women. I know Arabs are the bad guys with the war and everything. But they have always been considered white. They are a Caucasian people. In phenotype there is hardly any difference between an Arab and a Sicilian. Eurasians contrary to the delusions of race science are no more a Caucasian people than Barack Obama is. I have repeatedly exposed that white-looking Eurasians are either 3/4 or even more white. Only 12% Asian, with a white mom, in the case of Keanu Reeves.

It shouldn’t be so god damned hard. WMAF is always bragging that they are the most common interracial couple. This is supposed to prove how normal and natural they are. But now it is to their great
embarrassment that despite their huge numbers, and all the sons they have bred, they have not produced a single successful son. And so they have to resort to weird and bizarre analogies. Or outright fraud and lies. Or they have to babysnatch from AMWF couples, despite the fact that there are millions of WMAF sons and only hundreds of AMWF sons. That is pathetic. WMAF having to claim AMWF sons as their own is utterly pitiful considering the numbers involved. It is the ultimate surrender and admission of inferiority and defeat. Everytime WMAF apologists name someone with a white mom they are screaming at the top of their lungs “WE SUCK!”

Theory is the refuge of the coward, who lacks empirical evidence. With fact after fact coming out about Eurasian sons, and daughters too. Race scientists resort to their theories. They try to tell me what Eurasians SHOULD be according to their logical deductions. They have their charts and skull measurements, defining what whites and Asians are. And according to their graphs I must actually be an Egyptian. I pour tartar sauce on your Tatar sources. These race theorists will call me Arab, Latino, Turkish, Slav, Eskimo, Finn, everything but what I actually am. The son of a white American man and an East Asian women. They are the most common pairing in America. It shouldn’t be that hard to analyze them as they actually are in reality. Face the facts. Every single Eurasian male is doomed to a life of rejection and failure. This solves your mystery. Isn’t it weird how you can’t google up a single successful WMAF son? Its no mystery. Read my blog. There are good reasons that all WMAF sons end up like me or worse.

Put aside your abstract deductions based on faulty premises. Look at actual empirical data. Do not study the history of the AMWF Tatars, instead look at the lives of actual sons of white western men and east asian women. I will be vindicated in every single fact. Stop being guided by what you think should be, ought to be, and look at what is. Look at what the Eurasian man actually is, and don’t be deluded by your race theories. Children are not born of apriori logical deductions.

I’m sick of being the subject of your mental experiments. I actually exist. And I have actually done the research to see what other WMAF Eurasian sons are. And they are all like me. This is infinitely more real to me than your reasonings from first racial principles. Look at who the sons of WMAF actually are and not who they should be. Do not seek is from ought. The point of analogies is to simplify and clear things up, not to add unneeded complexities onto simple facts. I show you the fact that all WMAF sons fail for good reasons. And you give me a factless history lesson on the history of Armenia.

Forget the Turks. Ask yourself why has WMAF failed to produce a single good son, despite being the most common mixed coupling in America?

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