There has been a lot of heated controversy at
http://www.reddit.com/r/hapas/ over some comments TCOMD made there. My blog has been dragged into this, as many people often casually confuse us and TCOMD has requested that I weigh in and differentiate us. My blog has generally been self-contained in its own little solipsistic world, and I generally haven’t directly acknowledged trends outside my blog. While I regarded the emergence of new eurasian blogs as a step forward, I haven’t commented on them myself. But since the confusion is now causing difficulties, I think it is necessary that I directly confront our differences.
Me and TCOMD are very different people, and while we have superficial similarities in both being Eurasian men angry at our parents, we have lived entirely different lives. To call us the same, is just another variant on all Asians look alike, in this case all Eurasian write alike. If anything you could say that we started on opposite extremes of the spectrum, and have now met in a Eurasian middle. Now it is true that we have both carefully read each other’s blogs, so there has been some influence in both directions. TCOMD says that he was initially influenced by the paleoconservative views of his white dad, and initially identified with the cause of the white man. My blog influenced him in seeing his issues as specifically Eurasian issues, tied into the circumstances of his birth. I had essentially left my blog behind in 2011 as a completed project. Contrary to the impression that SEML was written during depression, it was actually written during the happiest most social period of my life. I closed the book on SEML in 2011 and tried to move on with my life. These projects had totally petered out by 2013. But rather than coming back to SEML in my new despair, I still left it alone as a closed book. There were a number of factors that influenced me coming out of retirement in 2014. But among them was definitely the emergence of TCOMD and other Eurasian blogs. TCOMD stands for The Circumstances of my Death. And the name of his blog is Longing for death. subtitled the diary of the suicidal son of a white father and asian mother. It gives some indication of where TCOMD was coming from. And so as the owner of this blog, I wanted to talk to him about his Eurasian despair, which I have felt all to keenly myself.
I don’t necessarily approve of everything TCOMD has to say, nor does he unconditionally agree with me on everything. In some comments he has accused me of going “soft”. I never thought that I’d live to see the day in which I became the “moderates” of the Eurasian Revolution. Suddenly I’m the Girondin or Mensheviks. People have caricatured me as an extremist radical from day one, and now their bogey man has actually taken shape. As for myself, I regard myself as having always been reasonable and moderate on these issues. Back in 2011, I said clearly that I didn’t think my parents were bad people as individuals and that I had nothing against race-mixing in principle. I merely pointed out that there was a lot of ugliness behind many, many WMAF relationships and that this was extremely detrimental to the sense of self-worth in any half Asian son.
If the accusation made against TCOMD is that he too much generalizes from his uniquely bad WMAF parents to the general WMAF population, tainting those poor innocent couples, for me it is the opposite. It is my innocent parents who are being tainted by your horrid WMAF couples. I don’t believe my parents are especially bad people or stereotypical WMAFs. But I have become so disgusted at the vile ugliness of WMAF couples, that I can’t help but rage at my parents for belonging to a category I hate so much. It is in a sense unfair that my parents, have probably taken more crap about being WMAF from their own son, than any of those stereotypical WMAF couples out there, who deserve it from their sons much more.
From my reading of TCOMD his parents were the classic WMAF caricature. His Asian mom openly hated Asian men. His white dad was a
paleoconservative, hated American women was looking to Asian women to fulfill his traditional values, while being a borderline White Nationalist. His mother died due to longterm complications from a bad blood transfusion due to having to give birth to TCOMD in a c-section. The c-section was itself a WMAF issue, as WMAFs have by far the largest number of c-secs of any mixing due to incompatibility.
One of the most galling confusions between me and TCOMD, was when a European women commented saying that these were uniquely American issues, and that she would recommend that I come to Europe to meet a white girl, but obviously she doesn’t since I’m married to my Chinese wife. This was of course very outrageous to me, as I’ve never had a girlfriend, much less a wife. And I have made my views about forming my own WMAF very clear. As a Eurasian caught in the middle, I regard any relations with Asians as a WMAF on my part, and with white girls an AMWF. She told me I shouldn’t be suicidal as some Eurasian guys have never even gotten a smile from a girl, while I was married. I asked her, that now that the confusion was cleared up, whether she did advocate suicide for me, since I had never gotten so much as a smile?
r/Hapas has largely functioned as a newsfeed more than anything else. And I myself have referenced some of the articles posted there. While me and TCOMD have exhibited hot emotional intensity on our blogs, r/Hapas has methodically and dispassionately accumulated empirical evidence for Hapa misery. With the recent controversy, things have heated up at r/Hapas too. And Eurasian men for the 1st time, are speaking up and saying they “completely identify” with the views expressed at r/Hapas and TCOMD. This is a powerful message to all Eurasians out there, that you are not alone. Your thoughts are not alone. There are thousands of other Eurasian men who think exactly like you, you just haven’t found them yet.
There is a Eurasian awakening taken place. I have been meaning to do an article about one of the posts on r/Hapas, which is the 1st mainstream national newspaper to interview a Eurasian man about the type of issues discussed here. The Eurasian voice is finally being heard at least in some quarters. The largescale mass creation of Eurasian sons is at last having its necessary consequences.
I’m not TCOMD, while we have evolved towards some similar positions on specific Eurasian issues, this is a convergence of 2 opposite extremes, and we have lived very different life experiences. Nothing either of us post should be assumed to be mutually endorsed. I appreciate the work TCOMD has done in showing me and other Eurasians that we are not alone in the wilderness, and that in fact something like a Eurasian movement is slowly coalescing.