U: What are some good things about being Eurasian?
I: If I step behind Rawl’s curtain of ignorance, and look at all the times and places to be born, I guess the 1st world in 2014 is not so bad. Since there are more East Asian women, than any other, being the least exotic, chances are I’m going to be born to an Asian mom. But I put in the request to my Creator, that I want to be born in the 1st world, at the height of technological civilization. And so given my preference for 1st world standards, and the likelihood of being born from an Asian woman, I have asked for a nearly 50% chance of being a Eurasian. Granted I could have been born in Japan or a Tiger economy. But they are a smaller component of the 1st world than the White World is. Despite, the fact that I don’t work, my basic needs are provided for, for the time being. Perhaps I take economics for granted, and only focus on the higher Maslowian needs. Although the PUA Darwinists, would say that sex is the most primal male need. And in that sense, some child soldier in Liberia is more fulfilled than a Eurasian in America. But I don’t feel any particularly strong drive to pass on my WMAF genes. And so I suppose I enjoy relative comfort, with the blessings of 2014 civilization, with little effort in return. Its not a great life. But its a more comfortable life, than most humans have enjoyed in most times and places.
U: Do you really think being born Eurasian is the worst thing in the world?
I: If I look at all the possible racial combinations, switching the sexes around, both mixed and pure race, yeah I don’t think there is anything worse than being born the Hapa son of WMAF. So yeah I do think I belong to the worst possible race. And even among Asians, I would say having a Northeast Asian mom is worse, since your pale whiteness, makes it impossible to pass for some ambiguous brown. My hypothetical half-brother would definitely be better off if my white dad had married any race but Asian. My Asian imaginary half-bro would live a much better life in a Tiger Economy, among his own. The only controversial claim, is that its better to be a full-Asian in America, rather than a half-Asian. I’ve debated this with myself. But I’m going to say it. I don’t really benefit much from half-white privilege. And my full Asian dad would be more plugged into the Asian culture and community. I’d have more of a network to belong to. And not be an atomistic, individual, semi-white loner. And the vast majority of people, see an Asian in me anyway. I have tortured myself for years, trying to pretend not to be Asian. If I was full Asian, I would be Asian, and that would be the end of the story. There would be nothing to run from. I’m Asian and thats it. I would hate being an Asian guy with a sister who WMAFs. But thats a different story. Since I don’t have a sister as a Eurasian, theres no reason to add one as a full-Asian. I probably wouldn’t get along with a Eurasian sister who WMAF’d either. And if I get all the negatives of being an Asian male, give me some positives too. Maybe I would be better at math, and more able to pursue a STEM career. I would have been more likely to learn an Asian language, so I could have built a STEM career in Asia. An option, not open to a Eurasian with no language skills. I don’t feel that anyone has ever treated me any better for being Eurasian, than if I was full-Asian. Maybe the one good thing is having a white last name. But if I had to, I could just Anglicize my Asian name, the way the old European immigrants did. I didn’t need a white dad to get his last name. And once they see my face, it does no good to have a white name. Since it immediately shouts WMAF, which just emasculates me.
U: Do you think maybe you make too much of race and sex? Granted there is plenty of racism, outside of sexuality. But thats been the main focus of your Hapa issues. There is more to life than social relations even. There is so much in the world. You mention a STEM career. Ok maybe thats not for you. But you could have found your passion and interest and followed that. And if the pleasures of the social side of life are denied to you, you could have compensated in other areas.
I: Which is exactly what I tried to do for much of my life. And it was only with the failure of those projects that I began to focus so exclusively on my failure to meet the standards of the American Good Life. Which might not be the Ideal Life, by my own values. But its clear that my values have been totally annihilated in the real world. Alright, there have definitely been lives much more painful than mine. People who have endured real hardship and torture. I haven’t experienced much pain. Its more a denial of positive goods, rather than the presence of bads. In this sense, evil for me has been a negative force. The absence of pleasure, as opposed to the addition of pain. That is something to be grateful for. Although, if my life continues, I will just experience more pain, until I’m forced into suicide.
U: What does it say about the human race, if they made you an outcast, based on the superficial physical characteristics of racial
differences? Because you don’t look exactly like any race, you must be rejected by all. Certainly this must say something of what you believe the character of man to be. Even if these apes, were to accept you, clearly you don’t think highly of them.
I: If people want to be racist, they will be racist. Its galling only when they pretend they are not racist. But clearly there is not a complete segregation of the races. WMAF is a clear example of interaction between the races. And yet look what the results of that are. In that sense, being allowed into white society, is worse than if there simply was a wall between Whites and Asians. The interaction of Whites and Asians, produces WMAFs, and then WMAF sons. And as a WMAF son, I’m in turn, treated like an Asian male, and totally denied by white society. In this way, I can’t say that separate but equal would be worse for me, than my current situation of together but unequal.
U: Do you feel you benefit in anyway from being allowed to live in White Society?
I: The very question, shows how useless my white genes are.
Genetically, I’m as much white as I’m Asian. And yet I’m a total alien foreigner, who is ‘allowed’ to live in white society. Its just another one of the ways, in which I might as well have had an Asian dad. If my frame of reference is the developed regions of Asia, with roughly comparable economics. I can’t say that the social scene in the West, is in anyway better for me as a Hapa, than Asia would be for me as an Asian. I can’t think of one way, in which my life as a WMAF Hapa in the west is better than my AMAF Asian imaginary half-brother in the East.
U: Suppose you had to trick this alternative full-Asian version of you, into trading places, what would you say to him?
I: It would be quite devious of me, to trick my alternative Asian self, into the misery of Hapa life. What would my selling points be? White girls are a lot better than Asian girls, much more exotic if you will. So at least you can be surrounded by white girls in the West. A lot of good it’ll do you if your Eurasian. Yeah, the economy might be a little better. I guess if you are just going to STEM out, and look just at the paycheck, you might be doing a little better. I guess Western culture can be more entertaining than Eastern culture in some ways. I’ve mostly known the bitter fruits of multiculturalism. But I guess its kind of cool, to have the whole world in a single
neighborhood. Diversity. Exposed to so many different cultures and worldviews. Forces you to step out of the box. Theres more welfare in America if you don’t want to work. Although not much a single male can get really. But, no East Asian country I’m aware of, has any equivalent of free healthcare. Then again, if I lived in a society that didn’t hate me, maybe I’d have more motivation to work.
U: So its really hard for you to name any benefits whatsoever for being a Eurasian Man in America vs an Asian man in developed Asia.
I: Theres a reason that Japanese are the least frequent immigrants to America. They developed 1st and have the least need to. There are a lot of South Korean immigrants. But most came in the 1980s and 1990s. I wonder what the rate has been since the 2010s. Most recent Asian immigrants seem to be from China and the Philippines. The poorer regions of Asia. If you have near equivalent economic status, there is no reason to sacrifice such social status. Granted, European immigration to America is relatively rare, even though they would be treated well as whites. So perhaps economics is the driver for everybody. But if I were a single Asian male, I’d never immigrate to America. If there were a real financial incentive, maybe I’d work here a few years and then go back. But assuming I were from a Tiger Economy, money can’t buy me love. I’d rather take a paycut than live in a country that hates me. I understand why economic immigrates migrate. But I can’t see why any 1st world Asians would. I rarely ever see any young, single Asian males, from a developed nation, come here. And they have nothing to gain here. Maybe they work here for business a few years, but why settle here? And yeah, the personal component to all this hypothetical musing, is that I resent my mom for leaving a developed Asian society, to have a Eurasian son in America. I believe she gave me a worse life.
U: Now technically, most of these arguments, would still stand against her if she had moved to America and married an Asian man.
I: In that case I would debate with my Asian dad, how bad life is in America for us Asian men. Unlike my white dad, he would actually have the right to argue with me, since he has actually lived it. My white dad, without being Asian, feels he has the right to brush aside the hellisness of being an Asian male. So in that scenario, the one to talk to, would not be my mom, but my Asian dad. And if he told me why life in America, isn’t so bad for Asian men, I’d actually listen to him. He’d have actual credibility. A WMAF has no right to tell their Hapa son, that Asian men are doing fine. My dad thinks I’m being shallow. Asians are the highest earning income group, and I’m worried that there aren’t enough celebrities. But obviously it is more than that. And even something as shallow as having Asian role models in Hollywood, would make life less hellish on the ground. Its not shallow, if you have to live life as a WMAF son, where every single Asian man on the screen is an insect, clown, cuckold, nerd, enemy, eunuch.
U: What are some facts that would falsify your beliefs?
I: These are my personal lived experiences. And yet all of this is verifiable or deniable, based on objective, statistical data. So you can look at how many Asian men are on TV in positive roles. Asian athletes. The most powerful barometer for the status of Asian men is the AMWF to WMAF ratio. And I’m sad to say that it has gotten consistently worse since the 1980s. Therefore I believe I have empirical data, that shows life is even worse for Asian men, than it was 30 years ago. If the gap began to close, it would be objective proof, that I was wrong about the status of Asian men in US society.
U: It all comes down to the AMWF to WMAF gap?
I: Its not everything. But lets not deny the role of human sexuality. After all, when the naive sociologists suggest that high-rates of intermarriage is proof that Asians are being integrated into white society, than the corollary must be the low rates of AMWF mean Asian males are not being integrated. And there is all this ideological baggage surrounding WMAF. And many rotten apples that have spoiled the barrow. Its not everything. But as I said it is a barometer. And it is both cause and effect of the emasculation of Asian men. Its not a coincidence that every single insult you can say about a man, is a stereotype for Asian men. Under such conditions, it would be shocking if there wasn’t a huge gap. Asians not being men, is just a component of them not being hu-men.
U: Ok, forget sociology for now. Is there any event in your life that would change your views? Obviously your personal AMWF, would mean a lot more to you, than AMWF stats. If a white girl dated you, would that make everything ok? Maybe it is all teasing and fake liking, but you had some incidents. It could be said, that you got close to what we might call a date, with a very attractive white girl. It didn’t pan out. But if you can get that close, whose to say you wouldn’t have gotten closer next time? If this is not about all Hapa men. But you personally. Who is to say you are a million miles away?
I: If we compare my development, to normal men, we’d have to say its nothing. Yes, I had some fine moments, which I personally cherish. But to use that as data, is foolishness. Since my best moments are what normal men, would consider awkward, humiliating fiascos. They mean something to me, for sentimental value. But if you’re seriously taking about relationship-building, all my interactions need to be named as embarrassing rejections. Maybe its true, that to an extent my paranoia has sunk so deep that even with a white gf, I would be insecure. From all the internet stories I’ve read, I’d be sure that all her friends would be constantly propagandizing her about how disgusting Asian men are. And how can you build a relationship on those grounds?
U: You are full of fear that the world is against you.
I: Which is confirmed by evidence.
U: Internet stories?
I: Why would AMWF couples lie? If this is what they say they go through, I believe them.
U: Then thats it, you’re Eurasian, and theres no hope for you?
I: Given the status of Asian men, given what WMAF by and large is about. I can’t imagine anything worse than being born the Half-Asian son of WMAF. Of all the possible sex-racial mixings, theres nothing worse than being a WMAF son. Its the worst possible match up. And I had the misfortune to be one of its victims. Even in the genetic lottery, having been born of WMAF, perhaps I could have been born a little less Asian looking. Even though Asian features always predominate in WMAF. But, no I had to be born with strong Oriental features. The Asian son of WMAF. No, I can’t imagine a worse mixing to be born of.