U: Do you think you are ugly?
I: I never felt ugly in my personal life. Sure I might have had this or that flaw, but I could work on it. It wasn’t until college, when I began reading online about the true meaning of WMAF, that I realized it was premised on the fact/belief that Asians are the ugliest race. I was looking at facial attractiveness studies, that did not directly reference race. All the pictures were of European men. And yet what is impossible to miss from these studies, is that Eurasian is the definition of ugly. The more a white man takes on Eurasian features, the uglier he is. The most extreme ‘ugly white man’ is the most close resemblance to a Eurasian. While the most attractive white man is furthest from Asian. And btw this is basically true for white women as well. I think its noticeable that despite the Asian fetish, on physical grounds, Asian women usually rank as the ugliest race of women. The real attraction to Asian women, is based on their supposed submissive personality traits. WMAF is clearly a form of settling for WM who can’t get WF. To exotify AF is to make a virtue out of a necessity. Sour grapes. I think that Columbia attraction study, that ranked Asian men last, also ranked Asian women last. Asian women were ranked last, by all races of men, including Asian men. So I guess you could say that Asians are just an ugly race, both men and women. But if you are an ugly women, you can still mate. I don’t think its a coincidence that Swedish Nordic women are considered the most radically feminist, while Asian women are considered the most submissive. Since Asian women on physical traits rank so low in sexual market value, they need to increase their brand, with the selling point of how submissive you are. A Danish woman has no need to settle, which Roosh discovered to his disgrace. This is the reason for the recent racialization of PUA, to focus on negging Asian men. I doubt I will be getting any more PUA spam on my blog, since they have given up on Eurasians as a hopeless cause. This is something I advised them to do back in 2011. I asked them how can they be biological determinists on sex and Blank Slates on race?
U: You believe that life is stacked against you in everyway possible and that you never had a chance.
I: Its amazing I was able to keep a sunny disposition as long as I did. A realistic assessment of my situation K-12 would have sent me into a deep depression from birth to now. Theres nothing good about my life. And its impossible to separate it from race. After all, I’m the outcome of WMAF genes and WMAF upbringing, combined with American society’s reaction to a Eurasian face. WMAF is totally unsuited to raise Eurasian kids. Think about the Asian mom, Confucian culture is all she knows, as is the case with Amy Chua. In many cases she is a FOB, 1st generation immigrant. Asian culture is her only frame of reference. And so she expects to raise her half-white kids with her Tiger Mom values. For Amy Chua this was explicitly her project on her Hapa daughters. Girls are more willing to accept this from their Asian moms, than Eurasian males are. But even in Chua’s book, her Hapa daughters eventually rebel. But if genetics had cursed her with sons, her book would not be a cute family comedy, but a psychological tragedy. Perhaps another WMAF mom needs to sell the book Tiger Son. But it really is a strange scenario to see Half-Whites with white last names, being raised by Confucian moms. A commentator suggested that Confucian girls are like Muslim boys, in that they want total control over their own, while seeking out enemy mates themselves.
U: And you see no possible way of rising out of this situation?
I: Can a leopard change his spots? Can a Hapa change his Hapaness? I’m born to be who I’m. I don’t think we’ll be seeing a Eurasian Civil Rights movement anytime soon. I did what I could with my life. I generally haven’t gone into the non-Hapa details of my life much on this blog. But as a teen and into young adulthood, I tried my best in all these macho manly adventures activities and jobs. Perhaps that was a mistake and I was in way over my head. But I did try. I didn’t sit on my hands all these years. I’m sitting on my hands now, because I’m convinced from bitter experience.
U: Are those two sides of the same coin perhaps? opposite poles attract? Two opposite symptoms of the same disease. On the one hand you aim for the moon, with your head in the clouds. And then when you can’t be a Great Man, you want to be the Worst Man. If you are not on the absolute top, you want to be on the absolute bottom. You were never willing to settle for the middle.
I: Since 2010, I would have been happy with a normal, lower middle, life. And I took steps to reach it. And thats precisely where race started coming up. In that the life of normal Asian men sucks. And so as a Hapa man, it was impossible for me to live a middle life. A decent job, a wife and kids, is forever closed off to a Hapa. I just can’t live a life surrounded by people who hold me in such contempt.
U: Now what about the devil’s advocate position, that you are just whining and using Eurasian issues as a scapegoat excuse for your own personal problems?
I: Of course these are my personal problems. I’m a eurasian person. And its impossible to separate my person from my Hapa identity. And all you have to do is read my autobiography to see, just how important Hapa issues were to me, from earliest childhood. I didn’t create this self. It was imposed on me from earliest childhood. I’m half-white, half-asian, and this defines me totally. And then to the accusation that this is all in my head. I have all my evidence of how bad it is for Asian men. And I look Asian. Now wiping all that away is nothing more than White Mansplaining. Its easy for those who are not Eurasian men, to pretend our problems aren’t real. You go try being Eurasian. If only they could do a Black Like Me for Eurasians. Let people walk a mile in Eurasian shoes.