My frame of reference for life, used to be a white American male. Not that I was super-entitled to demanding white privilege, but that was just generic, plain, vanilla normal. And I felt normal. For example if I would blog about general issues of depression and the cruelty of the world, without mentioning race, the assumption would be that I was a middle class white guy, complaining about the world. OTOH if I did mention race, as I do in this blog, then race comes to dominate everything and its all about race.
Speaking as a generic vanilla white guy, its hard to be too depressed. When I look over the wide sweep of human history, and the progress we made, there is so much to look forward to in 2014. And the lives of the average men around me don’t look so bad. I’m not talking about Alpha Male Football Quarterback. But just your average guy, he seems to be doing ok. So if he can do it why not me? Why shouldn’t I just toughen up, and live like everyone else?
Thats if I ignore race and pretend to be a universal man IE a white man. Then maybe I should just toughen up, get a job, face the world. Stop blaming my parents for everything.
But the situation changes once you color in my white face. Once I become Eurasian and not generic.
Spending too much time on the internet, can make the world appear more brutal than it really is. That there is some biological war of the sexes going on. But when I see the average same-race couple, it isn’t some Machiavellian power-play, but just two people who like each other having fun. I can’t say the same thing about WMAF couples. They aren’t just a normal couple of people with a lot in common. They have nothing in common. And it is quite clear, that their relationship is based on cruelty and domination.
When I look at the life of the average Asian-American male, I don’t feel any motivation to get out of bed and try. Now maybe you’ll post the picture of some super-hot Asian male celebrity with a white girlfriend. Although even among super-hot Eurasian male celebrities, having a white girlfriend is super-rarer. And there aren’t really that many Asian or Eurasian male celebrities in America period. Assuming they aren’t sad clowns, there aren’t many serious roles for them. If I were a white guy, I wouldn’t need to look to Brad Pitt to inspire me. I could just see that, the average guy seems to be living a decent life. But I don’t feel that the average Asian male is living a decent life. Not in economic, social or romantic sense.
You’ll challenge me on the economic grounds. But the fact is, based on qualifications, Asian men are actually paid less than any other race, even in their engineering and STEM jobs. Alright your probably not going to starve on the street, if you have an engineering degree. But its just a stereotype that all Asian men are in STEM. The GDP per capita is driven up by all the high-caste South Asian doctors. The Chinatown ghettos are actually pretty dirt poor. And they have nothing. No money. And no machsimo swagger of the black and brown ghettos. Just a hellish nightmare existence.
I don’t envy the life of the Asian male. So I don’t see anything better to do with my life than to rant on my blog. Its hard to take solace in human progress, when wmaf is such a barbaric, primitive, atavistic relationship, based on cavemen instincts to kill the other tribe and take their women. This is the rhetoric of wmaf. the marriage I was born of. In 2014.
Should I do something with my life? What can I do, when people are always going to see an Asian male in me. Perhaps full-Asians don’t realize how bad the situation is for them until puberty. But we Eurasian sons get hit by wmaf straight in the face, from our very birth. There is never a period of sweet innocence for us. From our earliest childhood, we know we are born from the castration of our race. Should Hapas accept their place in the world as Asian men, or should Hapas refuse that life? Hapas should sit out life.
The situation for Asian men, is as bad as I say it is, and so I have no motivation to life a finger. It is quite troubling for my wmaf parents. but they have nothing to offer me, other than the fact that their lives as wmaf wasn’t so bad. My mom thinks its not so bad being an Asian woman in America. Therefore I shouldn’t mind being a Half-Asian man. I do mind. I mind big time. And I’m quite glad to throw away my Hapa life. I don’t regret missing out on being an Asian male. I refuse to play that role in society. I wont fulfill my part. I might have been born of an Asian woman, but I refuse to be an Asian man for American society. I will sit out life, instead.