A lot of people seem to feel that they have the right to tell me what to do with my life. Even some who have listened to my reasoning, and agree maybe there is something wrong with the WMAF relationship. They say fine wmaf is bad, but the rest of the world doesn’t hate you, so you can just get a job and be a normal tax-paying citizen with your Eurasian body. As a white woman wrote, finding my race disgusting and unattractive is not the same thing as hating me.
If my beliefs about the world are correct, then truly Eurasian life is worthless garbage. There is nothing precious about it. And its to be tossed in the trash. If the White-Asian relationship is as evil as I say it is, then nothing good can come out of a White-Asian son. I’m worth more dead than alive. If a Eurasian man was to kill himself and blame it on being WMAF, he would achieve more in that act, than anything he could do with his life. His entire worth has come down to the fact that he has a white dad and asian mom. And so only in death can he use that fact to his advantage. In suicide, he has a voice, to say what it means to be the Hapa son of a white dad and asian mom.
If the situation is as bad as I say it is, how can I endure it? How can I live it? If the whole world is going to be seeing a Eurasian male in me, how can I survive it?