Julie felt that she and other Hapas only exist because their Asian mothers were the object of a fetish for Oriental exoticism
From an extract in a University of Michigan Press published book:
Here is a Eurasian girl, making the exact same case that I have at SEML. She questions her own birth, since she was born of a
relationship that degraded her racial identity. Here she is trying to live her life as a normal Eurasian woman, but she is born of a relationship that negates her. This is as close to SEL as you can get. Obviously she can’t say it castrates her, if I have. But she clearly understands that she was brought into this world by an unnatural union.
I could link to you many Eurasian Female blogs making this point. But WMAF propaganda insists that all Eurasian girls are happy. They used to insist that all Eurasian men were happy Keanu Reaves. But they are stopping to drop that now. Ok maybe the males are bad. But the Eurasian girls are beautiful little sextoys for white men. So no problem there. Except, some Eurasian women, want to be human beings. Some Eurasian women are half white, and were born in America, and consider themselves to be American women. You WMAFs all hate American women. So I think you should understand why your Eurasian woman daughter refuses to be your gentle lotus flower.
Its not good enough if a Eurasian woman says this on the internet apparently. So I give you the link to a published book from a 1st hand interview with a Eurasian woman. The points I’m making are not so crazy after all. Another Eurasian came to the same conclusions and she was a Eurasian female. As a woman who is dehumanized by being Eurasian, she doesn’t like being born out of a fetish marriage. She feels that she is the daughter of imperialist exploitation.
The circumstances of your marriage has consequences. If you didn’t start out as a normal couple, you don’t become one, as soon as kids pop out. And it is extremely traumatic to the children. To know that you were born of the humiliation of your own race. For Eurasian women, there is the knowledge that you were born out of hatred of American women for having too much freedom. You White dad is telling you that you as a woman don’t deserve freedom. This is hard for an American girl to take. And Eurasian women do consider themselves to be American women, as much as I’m an American man.
Not only have other Eurasians come to the exact same conclusions as me in a published book, they are females, are supposed to be the happy half of Hapa.
This Eurasian girl was very upset and at a conference stood up and loudly said “Instead of asking ‘Who am I?’ we should ask ‘Why am I?’. She then proceeded to denounce the imperialist relations of
domination, that she herself was born out of. If this was not a Eurasian woman, speaking up at a public even, as chronicled in a published book, you would say these are the mad rantings of a blogger.
I’m not the only Eurasian who feels this way. And many of the most vocal critics of being born of WMAF, are in fact Eurasian females. She is ANGRY that she as born. She is screaming at her other Hapas to wake up and smell their parents. She uses the word barbaric to describe the conditions she as a WMAF daughter was born of.
Now I sometimes get asked, if its true that we Eurasian males and females, both feel the same way, and have the same problems and issues, and can relate to each other so much. Why don’t we just date each other? But we are too traumatized by WMAF to date Eurasian. In the same way, that I’m traumatized by the AF aspect of WMAF, this Eurasian girl was traumatized by the White Male half of it.
When she is with Hapa males, she writes that she feels like they are just white men, who happen to have an Asian parent. She hates the exoticism of which she was born. And she feels that Hapa men are just white men exoticizing her. The trauma of WMAF hits her so hard, that she sees the White man inside the Hapa man. And she refuses to repeat the WMAF of her parents. Not even with a half-white man. For her, dating a Hapa man, would be the same thing as WMAF’ing. And I totally see where she is coming from. She is insulted by the very idea of being in a WMAF with a Hapa male. When she is with a Hapa, he becomes the white male, and she becomes the Asian female. And she has vowed never to repeat the WMAF of her parents. She uses medical language to describe the way in which Half-White men are infected by the contagious fetishism of white guys.
The whiteness she sees in these Hapa men, repulses her. This is why Hapas can’t just date each other. For as she says, we see the WMAF in each other. A half-white man will never see her as a full human being. Because he is just another white guy trying to WMAF. She is willing to date, but not any man who gives her flashbacks to WMAF. And if you are a half-white man, you are just another leering white guy to her. Hapa men, are just white guys exotifying her in the true WMAF style. Never to repeat the sins of our parents, this is the Eurasian creed. Being a with a man with whiteness in him, even if he is Eurasian, makes her feel about as special as “a toy in an adult video store”. This is what she sees in the white half of a Eurasian male.