I will try to be reasonable with myself as I hammer out what it means to be a Hapa man. There is not a pre-existing Hapa identity for me to fall back on. In a way I’m creating the Hapa identity with each word I type. There is no Hapa tradition to fall back on. WMAF in large numbers in America, is relatively recent phenomenon. Hapa-Americans as a demographic are really the creation of the 1980s.
Race matters. It doesn’t have to take on all the baggage it has on our society. But it is the most basic human identity. Even for simple identification. Hes the ‘black guy’ or the ‘Chinese guy’. The guy with the earing. Oh, you mean the Spanish guy? After, gender, the 1st defining attribute is race. Humans are a tribal species. And if you throw a bunch of people together, they will 1st divide along racial lines. Hapas have no where to go.
What does it mean to be Hapa? For the most part White America simple subsumes, Hapa identity into Asian identity. At most, Hapa is a type of Asian. This has become its own reality. If everyone treats me as Asian, I’m Asian. But I have a white dad. I’m an Asian man, with a white dad. Not an adopted white dad. But a white man, who I share half my DNA with. There doesn’t necessarily have to be anything wrong with a dad and son having different races. But as I keep repeating, WMAF has taken place under specific conditions of Asian male inferiority. WMAF is quite happy to both profit from this and contribute to it. It is not by accident that there is a 100:1 WMAF to AMWF ratio. And to pretend to be totally color-blind about this is to be willingly disingenuous.
Now I can’t say that any WMAF couples, other than my own parents owe me anything. I’m not the son of every WMAF couple in the world. I’m the son of my particular WMAF parents. There is no necessary connection between me and Asians, other than the fact that we share similar racial facial features. But this is where we need to stop being abstract atomists and actually look at the concrete social relations. The fact is that every other race of women, but Asians prefers their own. I’m not saying this is necessarily right, but its a fact. Nor am I going to applaud Asian women for being the most open-minded, least racist race. Their ideology is quite clear. White men are superior, Asian men are inferior.
The funny/sad irony, is that their Asian eggs are much more
responsible for the Asian male features they hate so much, than Asian sperm from Asian men. This can be seen quite clearly in a comparison between the sons of AMWF and WMAF. Nature has blessed AMWF sons with the white features that WMAF lusts for so much. Asian women are the ones putting down Asian men. And yet they are also the ones creating them. It doesn’t matter if they marry a white man. They are still going to have an Asian son. This is a very sad fact for them. And sadly, it has become a sad fact for me. WMAFs are very often race realists into biological theories of human behavior. You would think such biologically-oriented nerds would have more awareness of basic human genetics. The Big Lie, that Keanu Reeves is 1/2 Asian, shows a basic misunderstanding of genetics. There is no way in hell a WMAF son is going to come out looking like that. And yet this myth is intentionally propagated, so that WMAF can pretend they will have white sons. Do WMAF couples consider Barack Obama to be a white man?
I’m not white. I would accept being white, if American society wanted to anoint me with it. But it has been clear to me since childhood, that despite having a white dad, I’m nothing but an Asian man to society. And so being an Asian man born of a WMAF couple, I do take special offense when WMAF puts down Asian men. And it doesn’t seem to me to be a few bad apples spoiling the bunch. Rather, the emasculation of Asian men, and the masculation of Western Women, is the
foundational basis of WMAF.
Maybe I really am insane. Because to me that is the simplest thing in the world to understand. To me there could be nothing more clear, than why a Eurasian man would feel distraught at being born of that. And yet other than my fellow Eurasians, it seems like very few people seem to be able to grasp this. It seems so glaringly obvious to me, that if other people don’t get it, maybe my thoughts are totally different from the rest of humanity.
How am I supposed to live a life as a Eurasian man? Am I supposed to get a job, and earn money working for a Boss and coworkers who hate me? To earn a living, in a society surrounded by countrymen who despise me? Denied love and friendship from the human species? Why are you all so insistent that I take up that Eurasian life? You are all like sadistic prison guards, who don’t want me to escape from the cage of Eurasian life.
Ask yourself, why would I want to live that Hapa life? Would YOU be willing to live that Hapa life? Its easy to say yes, when you don’t have to actually do it. Maybe they need to do a “Black Like Me” thing in which they put a white man in Eurasian makeup, and let him walk a mile in my shoes. If you could spend a day as a Eurasian. But its more than just looking like a Eurasian. Try being humiliated and
emasculated for being Eurasian, and then being born of the WMAF that castrates your dignity. If you humans, can’t understand this, then truly we Eurasian mutants are of another species.
Its like you want to force me to be happy. That I have no choice, but to embrace Hapa life. For if I speak of abandoning life as a Hapa, that is a huge no-no. That is a most dangerous proposition. I’m commanded by anonymous concern trolls on the internet to live and live well. They will close their eyes, to all the genuine pain I feel as a Hapa. They will ignore all my legit complaints. But from their haughty thrones they will still command me to live. And they will pat themselves on the back for saving a Hapa life. They don’t care what the epilogue to their story is. They don’t care if there is any good possible life for a Hapa man to live. They will feel like heroes, if they can save a Hapa life. The goodness of the life doesn’t matter. You are like the pro-life people who will cry tears over the fetus, and then toss living, breathing children like trash. You want to stop my abortion. But you don’t care about the life I will lead when I’m born. And this is what I need, an abortion. I never consented to WMAF. I have a right to be unborn. I didn’t choose to be born of WMAF, and so I wish to undue my birth.
If you lock me up, in an insane asylum, you will believe yourselves to have saved me. You don’t give a damn, about a single one of my Eurasian anguishes. But as long as I’m living and breathing, you feel you’ve won. To save a Eurasian life. Most of you aren’t even WMAFs yourself. You don’t have any direct interest in them. And yet it is so much easier to believe their happy fairy tale of a star-crossed love story, than to listen to their little bundle of joy, happier ever after. You will clap for the fairy tale, and ignore the tears of the happier ever after.
Tell me, why my claims are so irrational and unreasonable to you? What more proof do you need?
Suppose you did believe me. That I’m a Half-Asian born of a
relationship that despises and puts down Asian men. For the sake of argument, believe me right now. What would you tell me to do then? You all think I’m lying or exaggerating. For just one moment, in a thought experiment, just believe me, give me the benefit of the doubt. What is your advice to me now? What kind of Eurasian life, do you now think I can lead, if the situation is as bad as I say it is?
I have presented my facts, and my reaction to said facts. IF what I say is true. Is my reaction unreasonable? Is it really so hard to understand why I feel the way I do? Are we so separate, are you THAT far away from my lived-experiences? Its like my lifestory is inconceivable to you. And yet I know for a fact, that multiple Eurasians have come to the same exact conclusion as me, independently.
IF its true. If Eurasian men, are treated as Asian, and they are born of couples that despise and hate Asian men, can’t you understand how hurt the son would be? Don’t you see, that this is the reason, I’m not alone in my thoughts. That other Eurasians have spoken like me.
OR are you all just going to ignore this again? I sometimes do have a rambling writing style. And I’m sure you can find some out of context quotes to harp on to demonize me as a freak. And the larger point about wmaf sons, which in my humble opinion, I have repeatedly made crystal clear. That you will somehow find a way to miss. It will somehow go right over your heads again. You will mock concern for my well-being, while ignoring everything of concern to me.
This is the reason the situation has gotten as bad as it is. This is why WMAF has a blank check to own their colored sons as slaves to white supremacy. To emotionally abuse them, to their heart’s content. For the love story, of East and West, can do no wrong. And if their own son speaks out, he is the villain, not the victim. You are the enablers of the cruelest mass child abuse, in the history of the world. You ensure, that little boys, grow up being told from birth, that they are racially inferior by their own parents.