Sometimes, I calm down and try to forget I exist. There is the world, and I’m not a part of it and I feel less angry. WMAF is an extremely ugly relationship. This is a stark fact. I was born of WMAF. We are our parents. I was born of a pairing I despise. That represents everything I hate in every way possible. By killing myself publicly, I can define what it means to be a WMAF son. I have a duty to die. Life as a Eurasian is impossible. I can’t endure being the son of wmaf, and I need to end me.
I wish I had nothing to do with wmaf. that it affected me in no way. But of course I have a lot to do with wmaf. Directly, I’m the son of a wmaf couple. In Neo-Darwinian terms, I exist to propagate the selfish genes of a WMAF mixing. I’m a DNA-Robot for WMAF. In social terms, I’m treated by USA society as an Asian male, and WMAF is very explicitly an emasculation of Asian males. Not inherently because its a mixing. Not because Asian men ‘own’ Asian women. Not because white men are ‘stealing’ Asian women. But because of relations of domination. It is not by accident. Not by accident that Asian women are the ONLY race of women, who prefer white men to their own men. If you call that racist. Then you can say that every other race of men is racist EXCEPT Asian men. Every other race of men, owns their women like property. Clearly, this is not a relationship of love. Read what they have to say. It is about showing imperialist domination over Asian men. It is about showing anti-feminist spite towards white women. And THIS is what I was born of. No, I can’t be content with it. No I can’t calm down.
Eurasians throw a monkey wrench into traditional American categories of race and sex. This is why it is hard to understand. Conservative Rightwingers hate me, because I’m demonizing the anti-feminist romance they love so much. Liberals hate me, because I’m suggesting that interracial marriage is not always progressive and pure in our beloved post-racial multicultural society. To conservatives I’m a radical, to liberals I’m a Nazi. For Rightists I’m taking away the pleasures of the white man.
I can’t calm down. I know what I was born of. The secret is out. And I see that these issues can’t be resolved but in the sacrifice of my life. Only then can I close the book on Eurasians. Is there a single book or newspaper article on what it is like to be the son of WMAF? Who has told the story of the WMAF family so far? White men and Asian women. They have got to define what it means to be Eurasian. They grab my mouth and force a smile on me. And say “see! hes happy!” They are outraged that one of their sons, would come out and break Confucian filial piety in public. They want to monopolize the narrative of WMAF. The idea that a WMAF son, might have something to say about his wmaf family, outrages them. And this is why they have fought to undermine and destroy me. Their cyberbullying will kill me in the end. But at the cost of revealing their sadistic treachery and child abuse to the world. I was cyberbullied to death by WMAF. They hated me, because they created me. I was their Frankenstein monster. They wanted to keep me locked up and out of public view. I’m the dirty little secret of WMAF. If it takes my life to expose this dark secret, then so be it.
Donald Trump believes that you should elect him President, because he has read so many books by WMAF couples. WMAF couples have exposed to Mr.Trump the “Chinese Mind”. WMAF couples have defined what it means to be an Oriental. And if you elect Donald Trump president, he will put these sneaky little cheating Chinks in their place. He will stop the Yellow Peril.
“I know the Chinese. I’ve made a lot of money with the Chinese. I understand the Chinese mind,” says Trump
What are Mr.Trump’s secret books into the Oriental Mind?
“Mao: The Untold Story” by Jung Chang and Jon Halliday
“Factory Girls” by Leslie T. Chang
“Battle Hymn of the Tiger Mother” by Amy Chua
Amy Chua, and her white husband, and Eurasian daughters have gotten to define the Chinese mind. What it means to be Chinese. She has been the voice for my family. Tiger Mom has defined the Asian-American experience. And WMAFs would like it to stay that way. They would like it, if Eurasian children would never grow up and find their own voices and speak for themselves. And this is why they have launched a campaign to cyberbully me. They want to destroy dissent within their family.
These are all nonfiction books. Let us not forget all the fiction that has created the Asian-American experience. All written by WMAF couples. Anchee Min, Amy Tan, Bette Bao Lord, Maxine Hong Kingston. They have gotten to define what it means to be Asian-American. And they do not like it when the shoe is on the other foot. They hate the idea of a Eurasian son, defining the WMAF experience.
Why do so many Asian women married to white men, keep their maiden names? Are these submissive Geisha lotus flowers, militant Feminists who refuse to take the slave-names of their White Husbands? Or is it part of their desire to rule both the WMAF kingdom and be the Queens of Asian America? They have turned Asian women into a joke, by making them the Queen of the White Nerds. This is why Asiaphile is not a positive trait in a white male. Asian women have sunk their status so low, that a white man who is attracted to Asian women, automatically makes him a loser. It is a paradox Asian women have gotten themselves into. They want a white husband. But their very desperation for whiteness, has made their pool of white suitors into a geek lake. At the end of the day, they want a White man who doesn’t want Asian women. Because of course, a proper white man, would never think to such a level. This is why Amy Chua is so proud to announce that her white husband has never date an Asian woman before her.
This is the relationship, I was born out of. There is no escaping it. I’m the son of a White Man and an Asian Woman. All I can do is tell the truth. WMAF can be the voice of Asian-Americans. And I shall be the voice of the WMAF Family. And the only way I can earn this honor, is by being a victim of suicide. What Tyler Clementi’s suicide did for Gays, my suicide must do for Eurasians.
I will speak as a Eurasian man. I will expose the WMAF mind from the inside. I will claim the heritage my parents have forced upon me. All my life, being a WMAF son has been the source of my weakness and shame. For these final months, it will be the source of my power and strength. I do have power as a Eurasian man. Through my suicide, I have the power to define what it means to be Eurasian.
I found the Eurasian crown lying in the gutter and I picked it up. Who else was speaking about Eurasian identity before me? No one. It was empty. No one want to be that Eurasian guy. So I stepped up. But I know my task will only be complete in my death. How Tyler Clementi became the voice of Gays, by dying, I must do the same for Eurasians. It is a prize, that can only be earned with the sacrifice of my life. And I only have the right to it, because I’m a WMAF son. In that last moment, I can be glad to be Eurasian. I have the power, that no one else but a Eurasian has. Only I can do this. The Eurasian Race, can only be born, through my death.
Wow this post is almost prophetic