So in the animal world, hybrids often don’t reproduce not just because of genetic sterility, but because of sexual selection. There are unique factors of attraction that each species is looking for, and so the mutant hybrid in the middle is a freakish abomination to both sides of the family. Thus even though the hybrid might be genetically compatible with both species, he will never have a chance to reproduce, and is thus functionally sterile. As far as sexual selection goes for WM/AF mutants, Asian & white females who are total bitches and enjoy emasculating Asian men, would just write Eurasian men off as another gook, and non-brainwashed fighting white and Asian females would recognize what a monstrosity WM/AF is, see it as the violent attack on both Asianness and Womanhood that it is, and would never date the offspring of such an abomination over a pureblooded Asian man. An asian woman with pride, and a progressive white woman would never choose a Hapa over an Asian male. So evil women wouldn’t want hapa males for evil reasons, and good women wouldn’t want hapa males for good reasons.
So what else can we expect from the monstrosity of white male asian female couplings than a freakish monster? And thats what I am. An elephant man. A retard. All my life my parents have been telling me what a freak I am. And I was so deluded into thinking I wasn’t a freak, that it really pissed me off to be called a freak. And you know what, even now that I’ve been enlightened into accepting my freakishness, it still pissess me off! But now I accept I’m a freak, I embraced my retardedness. Then my mom bitches, I have low self-esteem. After decades of you telling me I’m a freak, I’ve thrown my hands up. And you wonder why I have low self-esteem? Its a miracle that I blinded myself for so long to have delusions of grandeur, when I was such a freak. But I’m not a total retard. I’m supposed to be “smart” in the mechanical way Asian people are. Rote-learning without any real creativity or understanding. Take all the Asian stereotypes and put them on me personally, and Model Minority becomes my personal psychological issues, since your oh so color blind. Take every single insult you can throw at a man (yes even intelligence is an insult in a geeky nerdy way), and you have the stereotype of the Asian man. Now stereotypes are often by definition offensive, but I think the Asian male stereotype is unique in perfectly encapsulating everything you don’t want in a man. So my parents just take that, throw it on me as an individual. So its not Asian males who suck, its me I, who suck personally.
Should I hate my parents so much? Hey they did give me the basic middle class life and then some. They put up with my assholery and tantrums during adolescence. And they gave me a chance to prove them wrong, and I failed. They put money on my stock, and I was a bad investment. That is to their credit. If I wasn’t a freak, I had my chance to prove it, and if I hadn’t been a freak, my biography would be a very different story. Of course I never asked to be born an Eurasian-American male, living in the culture of 21st century America, offspring of a white man, and an Asian woman who chooses to sleep with a white man over Asian men. So they could have just aborted me, and we’d call it even.
Ok I do suck as me. I. Ego. Self. Individual. But what is “I” other than the sum total of nature and nurture? What is my nature? The Y-chromosome of a white man who couldn’t mate with a white woman, and the X-chromosome of a woman who finds the features of another race more attractive than the genes she carries in her own ovaries. Thats me. So I have the genes of suck. And then there is nurture. The culture of the 21st century USA. Being almost entirely in contact with my dad’s white side of the family. My mom’s feeble attempt to raise me as a Tiger Mom, which ultimately back fired big time in my angry revolt. Or did it fail? Perhaps my anger at my parents insults towards me, is that they hit a sensitive nerve, that perhaps my revolt against being a tiger cub, was not as successful as I imagined. Ironically I may be more Tiger Cub than I thought, and then my parents turn it around and use that as a club to beat me over the head with, when I’m just the creation of “superior Asian values” as Amy Chua would put it. I’m sure all American-born Asians can relate to feeling like a white man in an Asian body. That was the whole point of Wesley Yang’s article. So it may not be unique to Eurasians. Although it stings more.
IDK most Asian economies are doing pretty well now. And my economic prospects in the USA suck anyway. So I can say pretty definitively that I would have led a better life had my mom never immigrated to the USA and married my white dad. Of course that guy wouldn’t have been “me”, just another Asian in the billion-cell bee hive. But I hate me, so so much the better. IDK I’ll probably eventually get a job as a circus freakshow attraction.